Up yet again 1.8lbs.
Its not like I don't know why...I exercised once this week, I didn't journal, I ate most of our Halloween candy (this would be the major problem) I think I ate 5lbs of chocolate this week.
Sigh, Monday seemed to start off so well, I even weighed my fruit. Than Tuesday came, kids get sick, Wednesday kids are sick, I'm tired; still trying to eat healthy. Thursday all hell broke lose in my kitchen. I did the dreadful thing of opening the chocolates for tonight...I was making kiddie bags for their daycare...And well I ate all the coffee crisps in there...like 30 of them! Yes I did.
Not to throw a pity party but I'm bummed with myself. Just 2 weeks ago I was thinking how I could get to 175lb for Christmas and how great it would feel. I even pulled out some old jeans that I would be able to wear at that weight. Now I'm back to 189lb where I was stuck for this whole year practically. So frustrated with myself for being such an idiot with eating. Why is it so easy to put it all back on too? It takes me weeks to lose 2lbs and here I gained almost 3lbs in 2 weeks.
When my life isn't in order my eating gets in shambles. The worse part is, is I eat really well at work and people think I'm so good with control because I always turn treats, meals out down. What a farce when I come home to shove coffee crisp or M&M's in my mouth. I don't even want to mention how I teach at a gym too. IT just isn't easy for me and shoving things in my mouth is the first thing I think of doing when my girls are finally asleep. I grab something, sit on the couch and veg. Terrible I know, I've tried just having hot chocolate, tea, water, not working. The last few months I've just lost my will power I think.
I'll get out of this funk eventually.
1 comment:
I am so with you. My life has been totally disorganized these last two months and I really feel like my eating has suffered.
You can turn it around though - I know you can!
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