My progress picture of me at 220lbs is really hard for me to take in. I never realized how big I was till I saw these. This is so hard, I don't want to be a negative netty but dear God I look horrible and I thought I looked good. Grant it I have the unflattering clothes but really this is a bit hard to swallow.
This is hard, duh. Its never easy. How did I let myself get to this point? I know I was pregnant but you don't need to gain all that weight when your pregnant. I need to be very strict with my diet. Here's my gripe, how can some people eat crap and others eat fairly well and still gain weight? I did eat very well. I worked out alot, I drank lots of water, ate better than I'd say most people. My sister said the people she worked with were going on a diet, this consists of not eating fast food, wtf? And they lose 5lbs in one week. I don't even eat fast food!! My version of dieting would be from eating some veggies to most veggies. I am on WW, its a life change but sometimes we get those times that are hard and you pig out all week. Christmas and vacation are those times for me. Its a constant learning process for me to figure out what my body likes and what it doesn't. It doesn't like fake sugar, I always gain weight if I drink alot of crystal lite. I can't do the high protein thing, I gain too much weight on this too. Vegetarian is probably the best thing for me but, although I'd like to try, I find it would be quite difficult. I like my cheese, eggs, milk, chicken, fish.
I need to tell myself I've made progress and I wouldn't have gotten here if I didn't start somewhere. But really when I look in the mirror this is not the person I see, I see someone thinner. I feel alot better and maybe because I feel better I subconsciously thought I looked better. This is just an awakening.
Well I still have a long way to go, I'm looking forward to the next progress pic of being down another 20lbs or so. It will definitely motivate me by looking at that awful picture everytime I log in.
Next time I think I'll do myself up so I won't feel so bad, lol.
2 comments:
You bring up a good point here. Many times throughout my life I have thought "Why me? Why do I have to struggle with my weight when others can eat whatever they want?" But now I'm starting to think that everyone suffers from some kind of problem they will have to work on for the rest of their life for example an addiction or mental/physical disability. So for me weight is my struggle in life. By thinking in this way I’m hoping to stop being angry about it and instead learn to accept it as part of who I am. But it still sucks big time!
Good luck and keep up the good work!
Journeygirl
You're so right, I know I could have so many things in my life be worse. I'm so fortunate to have such a good life, so what weight is my struggle, that is something I can work on and fix. Thanks for putting me back into focus!!
I just wish my weight didn't consume all my thoughts :)
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